Weekend

I was really cranky this weekend, and I'm not sure why. On Friday, I went to Champaign for my first class of this semester, and it was fun catching up with my friend, Taylor, but the ride home was horrible. It poured the whole time, and I guess I was lucky it didn't really start snowing until the end. I got home and felt completely exhausted, so I ended up staying home, but then I felt all depressed that I was home and not out with other people. I get this weird anciness sometimes, like I'm tired and don't want to go out, but then I feel sad that I'm not with people. Does anyone else ever feel this way? I ended up watching What Not To Wear with my mom and getting ice cream with her. That almost made me more depressed. I am snapping so much at my mother recently, I just am feeling like I do not want to live at home anymore. This next semester is going to be hard.

Saturday was some better. I got up, went exercising, went to the mall for a bit and bought two shirts, and then my sister came up for the day to see her friend's new baby, so my whole family (mom and two sisters and I) went out to dinner together. Then, I went to see Hostel that night with some of my friends, which was horrible. Quite possibly the worst movie I have ever seen. The whole thing consisted of naked women and blood. It couldn't decide whether to be a porno flick or a horror movie. Probably the only redeeming factor was Jay Hernandez was pretty cute in it (from Crazy/Beautiful and Girl Fight). Sunday was church and working ALL DAY LONG at Barnes and Noble. I feel like I'm getting stir crazy for spring.

I feel like I really need to make a decision regarding next year. People have been pressuring me about looking for a job, and I just keep hesitating because I don't know where I want to live and where I want to be. I will definitely be doing social work wherever I am, but I can't decide whether or not to go to Scotland. I have been praying so much about the future, but feel like God is still saying wait, it will all be clear soon enough. I hate waiting. This is probably good for me.