Tough Crowd

I am literally shaking right now as I write this. I just came from a group at the junior high (now I'm eating my blessedly quiet lunch) where I had to make one boy go to the principal's office. He was being so disrespectful and kept talking when I was trying to make them watch a video. I kept giving him warnings and he kept being disrespectful and mocking the video, so I told him he could go back to his study hall. Well, he got really mad and started yelling how he hated me and how I was the one who needed therapy and if I cared about him at all like I said I did then I would be trying to help him instead of sending him to study hall. He was literally standing up and yelling at me, and I wanted to run and hide like a wounded animal. I hate confrontation, and when it is some junior high boy yelling such hateful stuff at me, it makes me feel even worse. I want to cry right now but I need to hold it together until the end of the day. And rationally I know it wasn't me or anything I did. He has an Emotional Disorder diagnosis, which means he reacts very emotionally and out of proportion to the situation, and he doesn't even know me besides. But the words he said sure found their mark. Luckily, he won't be allowed to come to group again, so I won't have to deal with him again. But I feel bad for him, I think that he is a deeply unhappy boy. There are other boys in that group who are also ones I need to keep an eye on. Please pray that this group gets better. They just need very structured activities right now because they cannot handle anything else, which of course means lots of work on my part. The pace is definitely picking up for me in my internship. I have 4 case studies to do where I have to meet with parents to get the student's history, I have one FBA and BIP to develop, I have three kids that I will begin one-on-one counseling, and I have two groups to do. Not to mention everything else that pops up over the course of a day. But overall, it's a really good busy. I like it that my days go by so fast, and I like most of the kids I see every day. Tomorrow through Saturday I'm going to a social work conference, so that will give me a little breather until next week.